Agony by Ryan Kaylee

Author:Ryan, Kaylee [Ryan, Kaylee]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Romance, Contemporary, Young Adult, Humour
Amazon: B08B46QFK3
Goodreads: 54033667
Publisher: Kaylee Ryan
Published: 2020-06-17T07:00:00+00:00

Chapter 16

Reese

I’ve been lying awake, for I don’t know how long, listening to Cooper breathe. The sun has just started to rise as the low dim light filters in through the window. We crossed a line last night, and it was blissful, and… everything. Then it wasn’t. For the last few years, hell, even longer if I’m honest with myself, I’ve harbored feelings that are more than just friendly for my best friend. Last night, I thought he felt the same way. Sure, he was hard—he’s a man, I was naked, that’s going to happen. But he pushed me away.

He couldn’t hear it, but my heart shattered.

Tiny shards of hope blasted into a million pieces. I don’t blame him. I’m not even mad at him. Cooper is and will always be special to me. However, it’s time I realize that we will never be anything but friends. That’s our story. That’s how it ends. I have to find a way to get past that. I can’t let it affect our friendship. I refuse to let it. Not having him in my life is not an option. I need to tramp down the pain and cover the scars from last night. That’s exactly what I plan to do, but I need a minute. Maybe a few hours to decompress. To get my head on straight.

Cooper has a lot of changes coming up. Changes that will not only impact his life but mine. The Combine is in a couple of months, the draft, finals, graduation, and then he’s leaving. I know it’s what’s best for him. I know he’s going to be fucking fantastic, and I couldn’t be happier for him that he gets to live his dream.

I just… need a minute.

Carefully, I climb out of bed, trying not to wake him. With my back to the bed, I slip off his T-shirt and slide back into my bra and sweater. With my boots in hand, I grab my bag, which holds my car keys from the floor. Slowly I turn the knob and let myself out of his room. I feel like I’m doing my first ever walk of shame, and in a way, I am. Although, I’m not ashamed of what we did. I am, however, embarrassed that I offered him more, and he shut me down. That’s my scar to bear, and one I need to learn to mask quickly.

This is the coward’s way out, and I’m fully aware of that. I just need to go home, get a few more hours of sleep, shower, and then I’ll be fine. Things will go back to how they used to be, and I have to be okay with that. The alternative is losing Cooper in my life, and that just won’t do.

Thankfully, my car isn’t blocked. Tossing my bag into the back seat, I hustle to slide behind the wheel and back out of the drive. I keep my eyes on the road, refusing to glance back at the house. No, I can’t do that.

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